deserted

man..life really damn dull..other than college and home..i really got nothing better to do ..i been wondering how come my phone credit still got so much..maybe i dun have ppl for me to message or no one call me out and i dun need to call them to ask for time and venue..life really change a lot compare to last time..seriously i really regret going to this college..it is so dull and i thought i could find better fren and start a god damn life..but it dun seem that way..going to engineering course is really chaos..the people there really suck..i never been so quiet and trying to avoid anyone that much before..i nevfer even thought have to take my lunch all by myself..the worst thing is i still have to search those other class for lunch..from their eye..i can see"fuck off larh,we dun wan eat with u larh" that kind of look..now in my eye onli book and tv..no other entertainment..shea yen stay so fucking far and cant meet her often..talking bout her..after knowing lot thing bout bing..i seem to lost interest in shea yen anymore..am i still overpowered by bing...god!!!why cant she just leave my life entirely..reading everone blog and i could see..in everyone eye..she is such a goddess..but how can she treat me like that..i feel damn fuck..and i really not being perasan here..why people as good as me have to stay being like one invisible guy..dude..i really dunno how long i could stand this kinda situation..i hope i got more activity and meet more people..i hate my life..