freaking early

i dream of bing yesterday..dream she just pass by me ..by i know i should forget bout this girl..but once i wake up ..i feel so emotional..very sad and somehow got a strong feeling toward her..thaty why i cant continue my sleep..now here i am with the clock showing 8 am.,i really wonder do i reallly forget everything bout her or what??i really cannot imagine what will happen if i see her somewhere before she go russia..will i be sad ,angry or what??but i deffinitely know she will make me like what i am now..depress..no!!i cannot continue like that..this girl make me suffer enough!!and i cant remember her till the end of world..not s single second of minutes is for her..no way!!!i hate u chua huey bing!!!